It’s ironic that just last week I was writing about how I am trying to move on. I know it must be tedious for you all to read but Memphiz knows the whole story, so I wanted to update my coals as well.
Quick summary: I bumped into my ex (who I refer to as the King of Trolls (KOT) while I was out and about with friends at a bar here in Dar-es-Salaam. He was with his friends. I was with mine. He went out of his way to say hello to me and I was civil. Later on in the evening, I went to make a phone call to my brother and he kept staring at me through the glass like he wanted me to go and talk to him. It was really disconcerting.
I was *actually* forgetting about him and moving on up until last Saturday. It had been 3 months and he was no longer in my mind as much, even though my feelings are still the same. When I saw him, all the feelings just rushed back and I was so confused and hurt because I did not get how he could act so completely nonchalant. I tried to forget about it and have a good time with my friends instead.
Later on that evening, he sent me a text message (why?) saying he wanted to speak to me but was with my friends so he did not want to make a scene. I replied saying okay cool and what did he want to talk about to which he replied again saying he wanted to know how I was and how I was doing. To cut a long story short, we met on Monday on my insistence because I wanted to know why on earth he felt like he had to text me that way.
I’m still none the wiser despite him giving me his reason why leads me to my next point: why do they do this when they can feel that you are moving on?
I still love him so much and I am so confused now because I don’t get why he contacted me like that. Why couldn’t he just have kept it to simple hellos?