Today’s my birthday. It is always a bittersweet day because it was also the last day I ever spoke to my father in 2000. He called me and a month later, he died of a stroke. I heard from my mum in who is in Uganda, my cousin Jenny in Kenya (which was lovely), and I received texts from my brother Muga and older sister Kemi, who are both in Tanzania. In particular, my brother and older sister are loyal and never forget me. This day is always a subdued day and today, I feel happy that I am still alive, but I also am feeling anxious about my future.
I have not shared my real dreams with many peoples. I have spoken a little about my ideas for myself such as my MA project which is starting a careers website. I have been doing a lot of cold calls and work for that. I hope it becomes successful. I know they say you should never share your dreams with people or tell them what you want to do. All I know is I want to work for myself. I want to help people create opportunities for themselves. That’s my passion and it lies in creating career information for people, through my attempts at entrepreneurship.
I just feel like I am not getting there, despite my persistence to call people and set up meetings. I either get emails saying no, or people never return my calls or I just have to keep calling them. Take this example:
One person at a government agency said he would return my call. I called back after 3 days. The receptionist tells me he will call me back. A few days later, no call back. I then emailed him. No answer. I will just leave it. It frustrates me because I know that my idea for a careers website has the potential to help someone find direction, so it is a dampening when someone who can help, does not want to.
I just know that this is what I want to do. I want to be my own boss. But most of all, I want to create this careers resource to help people reach their potential. I am always asking my friends about what their career paths are, that it has got to the point where they jokingly call me a ‘careers advisor’. I don’t want to work in recruitment sales or anything like, I am still passionate about media. I just want it to be like media + careers.
I think on my birthday today, it has just reminded me that I have a lot more work to do. I need to be more focused and think about the sacrifices my mum and dad made. Even though he is no longer here with us, he always told me and my siblings to Go For Gold and achieve what we wanted.
I am hoping I can make my MA careers project a success. It can just be disheartening when you feel like you are working so hard, but getting nowhere. I will writing on the blog more about my MA project and my stories of me trying to make it successful. Any advice is always appreciated.
When I look at the stories of the X Factor runners up, as shown here on The Times, all that glitters is not gold. But I just know that I need to do my own thing, my own way. If I could be my own boss in 5 years time, I would be happy.